Just poke yourself.
Deep.
Now do it again.
One more time.
A little deeper.
Push it harder.
Just pull the needle from your arm and feel it burning.
Let it consume you.
Make yourself worse without any help.
Maybe that's how you feel alive.
Let your mind torture you.
That's how you feel alive.
Now hence and repeat.
Never forget.
Don't ever let go of it.
Poke it deep.
Push it harder.
Make yourself bleed.
Do it.
One more time.
Don't you dare to forget.